This is How Insignificantly Significant I am

I was this afternoon watering my dying plants or are they flowers!  It has been a while since I saw them bloom, but I will not give up on them. I love flowers but they can be such a hustle to take care of. I have no idea though, why they have refused to bloom. Maybe they are feeling cold too and so they refuse to cooperate with their owner. Anyway, that's not the reason for this blog. You see, there are some ants that love suckling out the juices from the flowers. They are quite annoying since they can actually kill the flower. I can't stand pesticides, so I sometimes try to remove them physically, usually with very little success.                                                                                                             

I was similarly unsuccessful with them today so I gave up and decided to fix myself  cup of coffee instead. Being a public holiday in Kenya today [Eid] I decided to give myself a small treat; have a piece of cake! Yes, I eat cake too. When I sat down to enjoy my very rare treat, I saw this tiny black speck fall into my plate. On closer scrutiny I realized it was an ant. One of the ants had taken a ride on my sweater and now more than ever he was wishing he hid or something. The poor thing just looked so confused running up and down the plate. Many times I would just squash the poor animal and move on with my business. But today I took time to look at this creature and I started to imagine what was going on through its mind! He must have looked up to me and just thought how humongous I was compared to him. I think I must be like several billion times bigger than him. I also guess the frustration coupled with running up and down was his way of trying to get away. The problem though was that I could see its every move. But I put it down and let him go!  

This encounter took me back to the course of this week. I have been reading quite a lot about NASA (National Aeronautics and Space Administration)and the researches they have been carrying out over the years. From the Space Shuttle Programs to exploration of Planet Mars, to moon landings, to the beautiful and such amazing pictures that the Hubble Space Telescope has been capturing over the years. It is amazing what Man has done over the years in trying to find out exactly what is out there beyond planet earth. But what comes out clearly in all this is that we have not even scratched the surface in this adventure. All the things we know, is just a drop in a trillion oceans. We have just had a minute sneak preview of what God has created. We are so small, I am so small. 

The whole of this week I was reminded of my insignificance. Just like the ant might have felt in my presence, I did feel before God. I went back to scripture, the Holy Bible, to find out what it says about universe, the entire creation and mankind. And here are a few verses. Nehemiah 9:6 “You are the only Lord. You made the heavens, even the highest heavens, with all the stars. You made the earth and everything on it, the seas and everything in them; you give life to everything. The heavenly army worships you.” Job 26:7-9 “He spreads out the northern skies over empty space; he suspends the earth over nothing. He wraps up the waters in his clouds, yet the clouds do not burst under their weight. He covers the face of the full moon, spreading his clouds over it.” Job 26:11- 14 “The pillars of heaven tremble and are astonished at his reproof. He divideth the sea with his power, and by his understanding he smiteth through the proud. By his spirit he hath garnished the heavens; his hand hath formed the crooked serpent. Lo, these are parts of his ways: but how little a portion is heard of him? But the thunder of his power who can understand?”

You see God is all powerful that just [Ps. 33:6] By the word of the Lord the heavens were made, And by the breath of His mouth all their host(stars).”Psalm 93: 1 The LORD reigns, he is robed in majesty; 
 the LORD is robed in majesty and armed with strength; 
 indeed, the world is established, firm and secure.

But then throughout my lifetime, one thing that has been clear is how God is mindful of not only the entire universe and mankind, but that He is specifically mindful of ME. I can’t help but ask like King David did in Psalms 8:3-4 “When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers, the moon and the stars, which You have ordained, What is man that You are mindful of him? That God loves me just as I am, that He sent His Son Jesus to die for me so that I can have life and life in abundance. I feel really small before God, just like the ant felt before me.

But, this is just how insignificantly significant I am.

Psalm 139

1 O LORD, you have searched me

and you know me.

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;

you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;

you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue

you know it completely, O LORD.

5 You hem me in—behind and before;

you have laid your hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,

too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?

Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;

if I make my bed in the depths, a you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,

if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,

your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me

and the light become night around me,”

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;

the night will shine like the day,

for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;

you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

your works are wonderful,

I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you

when I was made in the secret place.

When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.

All the days ordained for me

were written in your book

before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!

How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,

they would outnumber the grains of sand.

When I awake,

I am still with you.